time: 9:09 PM
eating: an oreo
drinking: orange juice
listening to: pado - bibi

hm yes hello

it has once again been a While. some updates:
1: i've been working at a boba shop for 6 months now
2: i had one interview for a 3d artist position last week and i'm waiting to hear what their decision is

i'm feeling pretty hopeful that i'll find a job that is relevant to my degree pretty soon. i really hope i get the one i just interviewed for..it's for a company that makes cute stuffed animals and toys. being the 3d artist for them would be pretty much my dream job. i've been applying to countless studios and positions and ive been ghosted more times than i can count, it was getting pretty discouraging. fingers crossed my big break comes soon. i really want to move out!! i also want to get married. my bf and i have been together for a really long time now and it just feels like the natural thing to do. we've already discussed it. although i wouldn't feel ready or deserving until i can get myself a full time position. i'm getting very sick of making boba.

my parents are also super conservative so theres no way we'd be able to move in together before getting married without pissing them off. as irritated as that makes me, i'd rather avoid that headache all together.

well, happy new year! later.

time: 8:46 PM
eating: nothing
drinking: mango jasmine green milk tea
listening to: Iinadukeblue - charisma.com

I HAVE RETURNED FROM THE DEAD!!!!!!

lots of new updates!
1: I graduated from art college! woohoo!
2: i've gotten into mechanical keyboards. click clack rgb go brrr

i still have not processed the fact that i am done with school forever. my school had a virtual graduation on zoom which made me really sad (but what can you do about that?) it's such a surreal concept. for the past 17 years my entire identity revolved around being a student. now that that's done i feel so....lost. what am i supposed to do with all this unstructured time?!?!

i don't have a job lined up for me just yet sadly, but i'm kind of relieved that i can have some time to just unwind and relax without thinking about deadlines or responsibilities. gonna take a couple weeks to just shut off. no art. only vibe.

currently in the middle of moving out of my apartment. i've lived here for the past 3 years and i will truly cherish all the memories i made with my roommates and best friends! we took the past week to have as much fun as we could together before parting ways.

obviously we will still be seeing eachother and hanging out over the summer (fully vaccinated gang), but the time we shared as roommates is coming to an end and it really was something special.

ok idk what else to talk about. see u all soon

time: 11:29 pm
eating: macaroni
drinking: wawa
listening to: Rules - Doja Cat

it is now winter break! one semester of my senior year done. i've accomplished a ton art wise and im preparing to apply to internships. finished off the semester strong with a 4.0! art school isn't that hard but that number feels really nice.

i developed a shopping addiction during quarantine. it is very concerning but i love clothes lol. i'm also working on starting up my youtube channel again so thats exciting. go check it out! my channel name is handsomepeach. i came up with the name in 8th grade and i cant change it.

i cannot believe the state we are currently in. this virus is just out of control. i've lost all hope of returning to campus for the spring semester which is incredibly depressing. my last year of college will be spend entirely online. no graduation, no senior show in the traditional sense. i try not to let it get me down too muchh but damn. this really is reality right now. LA's cases are out of control and somehow we ended up becoming the epicenter of the pandemic!!!! wow!!! fan-fucking-tastic. I just want to walk around campus again. i just want to feel like a person again. i really do hate am*r*ca lmfao. what a clown of a country truly.

tomorrow is christmas eve. i can't wait to eat my moms spaghetti.

see you all soon

time: 10:48 pm
eating: had jajangmyeon for dinner
drinking: wawa
listening to: Girls in the Hood - Megan thee Stallion

just got out of the bath n im waiting for my hair to dry. today was, like all the other days these past few months, spent liesurely and uneventfully inside. i feel myself becoming more and more sluggish. i just want to sleep most of the time jhgkjdfgh but i need to NOT.

im still in a weird emotional state but i feel like thats all i end up writing about so i will not do that today. yes i will talk about other things. good.

lately ive been rly into watching artist alley and studio vlogs on youtube. my current favs are baylee jae and maracuyas art. their videos r such a soothing presence. i think its also bc i rly miss going to conventions and being dehydrated after walking for 4 hours straight in the la convention center (rip ax 2020). what i would give to be wading through a crowd of people in the hot la july T_T anyway i also rewatched avatar the last airbender on netflix. well more like just watched bc i didnt rly watch it when it aired as a kid. currently rewatching beastars bc its 2020 and we should just accept being furry adjacent.

tomorrow maybe i will start exercising again. maybe order some ramen for takeout. who knows.

honestly i dont know if i will ever get the hang of this journaling thing fkghdfkgh i almost never know what to write about or how to organize my thoughts. i miss the god complex ap english gave me back in high school. i was writing shit like nobodys business and ive been chasing that high ever since..

time: 6:13 pm
mood: at ease
eating: nothing
drinking: water
listening to: nothing

hello hello! you may have noticed the new diary layout. i've been mulling it over for the past few days and i have now decided it was time to revamp my diary's html. i wanted it to look like a little notebook. i know its been done but listen. it works. and i like it.

i've also decided to archive all my old entries since i didn't feel like reformatting all of them to the new layout. you can still find them all under the archive tab to the left. i'm pretty happy with how this looks. i can rest assured it wont look all wonky on different screen resolutions. the main reason i changed it up ws bc the previous layout looked absolutely WACK on bigger screens. i was mortified. i could not be bothered to fix it so here we are. I am using this template from foollovers as my base. saved me the headache of trying to figure out the html on my own OTL i know i should probably attempt it on my own so i can learn but;;; work smarter not harder u know!

anyways, recently i bought myself a new display tablet to replace my old wacom bamboo. it's an xp-pen artist 24 pro and it is big and beautiful. i use it as my main monitor now. i bought a wireless keyboard so now i dont even have to look at my laptop. pretty freakin poggers mate. cannot wait to do some major drawing on this bad boy *kisses it* thats all for now. good bye and take care!